Embracing the Existential Fear

A 2-Hour Journey of Presence, Surrender, and Inner Discovery

I’ve spent much of my life reacting to fear in the usual ways — running from it, numbing it, turning it into anger, or collapsing under its weight.

Over the past couple of years, through the practice of Transformational Connection, I’ve begun to allow more fear to be felt — a somatic welcoming that often transforms fear into empowerment, love, even joy. It feels easier when I’m in connection with another.

I’ve known, conceptually, that all fear leads back to the same root — the existential fear of death, ego loss, annihilation. But only recently did I meet that fear fully.

It happened in a men’s circle. After a moment of tension with another man, I set a boundary — it felt strong, but not whole. Later, standing beside two grounded men, I connected to a deeper frequency in me: fear. The fear of being overpowered, dominated, even killed.

This time, I didn’t push it away.

Shaking, heart pounding, I walked toward it, surrendering, not to die, but to stop protecting myself from life. And in that surrender, I didn’t disappear. I became free.

What followed was a grounded, steady awareness that stayed for hours. My body soft, my heart open. There was no fear left — just love and stillness.

This ritual was born from that night.

My Intention

To create a safe, sacred space where fear can be explored, in whatever form it shows up. It doesn’t have to be huge. You don’t even need to feel ready to face it. Even coming a little closer, sneaking a glance at what’s usually avoided, can be empowering. My goal is to empower both myself and you to meet fear, so we can embrace our lives more fully.

Journey Roadmap

🌬 Somatic meditation to connect to the nervous system

🕯 A descent into the body to meet your fear

🌀 Giving it form, and facing it directly

🔥 An inner ritual of surrender and offering

🌌 Resting in non-dual awareness

📝 Integration through reflection and sharing

This space is held with depth, intention, and trauma-awareness. You move at your own pace and meet yourself where you are. Nothing is forced.

For those who feel

🌿 A stirring to meet what you usually avoid

🌿 A curiosity about ego-loss, death, or surrender

🌿 A longing to walk toward the edge, not alone, but with presence and support

🌿 A longing to feel more alive

🌿 A restless energy that wants to be seen and held

🌿 An urge to connect more deeply with your body and breath

Please Bring

📓 Journal & pen

🧘 Mat or cushion

💧 Water

🕯️ Any symbolic object (stone, candle, cloth…)

🖤 And your willingness to be with your experience, as it is

Registration

Depending on interest, I would like to offer it anywhere between 1 and 4 times a month.

Since this is mostly a guided journey that we do on our own and an integration part that will be done in a small group, the sessions will not be capped.

I expect that the sessions will be offered at 15-20 euros, with discounts for those of you who need it.

As I’m deliberating on these details, I’d like to offer you a free session. Register below.