Embracing the Existential Fear

A Somatic Ritual of Surrender and Aliveness

I’ve spent most of my life reacting to fear in the usual ways — running from it, numbing it, turning it into anger, or collapsing under its weight.

Over the past couple of years, through the practice of Transformational Connection, I’ve begun to allow more fear to be felt — a somatic welcoming that often transforms fear into empowerment, love, even joy. It feels easier when I’m in connection with another.

I’ve known, conceptually, that all fear leads back to the same root — the existential fear of death, ego loss, annihilation. But only recently did I meet that fear fully.

It happened in a men’s circle. After a moment of tension with another man, I set a boundary — it felt strong, but not whole. Later, standing beside two grounded men, I connected to a deeper frequency in me: fear. The fear of being overpowered, dominated, even killed.

This time, I didn’t push it away.

Shaking, heart pounding, I walked toward it, surrendering, not to die, but to stop protecting myself from life. And in that surrender, I didn’t disappear. I became free.

What followed was a grounded, steady awareness that stayed for hours. My body soft, my heart open. There was no fear left — just love and stillness.

This ritual was born from that night.

My Intention

To create a safe, sacred space where fear can be explored, in whatever form it shows up. It doesn’t have to be huge. You don’t even need to feel ready to face it. Even coming a little closer, sneaking a glance at what’s usually avoided, can be empowering. However, if you are ready, you might want to explore the fear of all fears - the fear of death. My goal is to empower both myself and you to meet fear, so we can embrace our lives more fully.

Journey Roadmap

🌬 Somatic meditation to connect to the nervous system

🕯 A descent into the body to meet your fear

🌀 Giving it form, and facing it directly

🔥 An inner ritual of surrender and offering

🌌 Resting in non-dual awareness

📝 Integration through reflection and sharing

This space is held with depth, intention, and trauma-awareness. You move at your own pace and meet yourself where you are. Nothing is forced.

For those who feel

🌿 A stirring to meet what you usually avoid

🌿 A curiosity about ego-loss, death, surrender

🌿 A longing to walk toward the edge, not alone, but with presence and support

🌿 A longing to feel more alive

🌿 A restless energy that wants to be seen and held

🌿 An urge to connect more deeply with your body and breath

Logistics

This is a 2 1/2-hour online group journey. You will receive a Zoom link via email upon registration.

Please bring with You

📓 Journal & pen

🧘 Mat or cushion

💧 Water or tea

🕯️ Any symbolic object (stone, candle, cloth…)

🖤 And your willingness to go towards your fears

Register

I’m intending to offer this space once or twice a month, depending on interest.

I expect a price at around 20 euros, with discounts for those of you who need it.

As I consider these details, I’d like to offer you a free session.